sunday 9/4

im disappointed in myself everyday. i cant seem to make the healthy choice. im not trying to destroy myself anymore but i just cant do better for myself. i dont really feel like im capable or deserve it. or im scared of my thoughts if i stop. im scared of being alone with myself. every day is stagnant. everyday the same. i cant be the person i want to be because i push myself a little too much everyday. i want a break. i want out of myself. i cant stand the smell. the taste orthe sound. itss too much. i feel worried about my future and my present. im dissatisfied in everyway. at least sabrina is here